Thursday
August 21 '03
mr yong came back to school with the photos of the finals and i managed to snap a picture with him courtesy of alvyn's digicam! mr yong's this really nice pe teacher i had in the second term. he just came back to do relief teaching and thereafter went to tp. enjoyed my pe with him around. plus he's always there for the team and i really appreciate his help.
then was chaplain's hour. kinda went cos mr yoong wanted to pass me this job attachment form but found out that it clashed with my training tour to thailand. since i've signed up for that, i'll have to give the job attachment a miss then. chaplain's hour was really enriching, the worship, the speaker all had something to say to me. and u know what that means? that God really is faithful! i prayed that I will draw close to Him but He made the first move to draw close to me! ask and u shall receive! u have little because u ask for little.
SAT and thereafter was rather ok. the tutorial period really helped clear alot of doubts i had on the verbal section. since i only got a pathetic 430 for my verbal section! tres pathetic!!! (to quote from grace)
on the way home i was listening to this sermon titled "what is a Christian?". realised that i have sinned really badly in the past and i ask for true repentence. something that will compell me not to sin that same sin again! i also need obedience to His will that is perfect above all things. not my will but Yours!
really need to go off now, shall talk more about the prayer meeting another time.
Sunday
August 17 '03
the thing is, im not
shall not go into a depressed mood because i have an absolute expectation to live up to. that being God's expectation. so many things happened when i was busy and the devil just took the chance and i fell prey to satan. now by God's grace He has shown me His love where previously i only had self-pity. God's charity to me is just wonderful and im thankful for it.
recently so much has happened. am truly appreciative of some ppl in my life. namely kelvin, jared, yujuan, dancia, laiwah. there are so many others that God has sent to help me, pick me up when i was down. thank God for them! =)
i do have alot of insecurities in life and there's one right now. it's so funny why i feel that way when it doesn't seem really related to me and stuff. if this feeling is not from God i just pray that He will take it away from me. i really want to surrender it to God. the main thing why i felt insecure abt the whole incident is that i really feel like i haf a job to protect somebody from harm.
Lord let this feeling remain there as it is. to just want to prevent a fellow brother to fall and also to protect a very special person u've put in my life. amen
